Nehemiah 2:2-3 (NIV)
So the king asked me, ‘Why does your face look so sad when you are not ill? This can be nothing but sadness of heart.’
I was very much afraid, 3 but I said to the king, ‘May the king live for ever! Why should my face not look sad when the city where my ancestors are buried lies in ruins, and its gates have been destroyed by fire?’
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Exactly 2 years ago I stepped into the Iloilo mayor’s office on 19 June 2015. And he asked, “What is on your heart?”
We spoke about our passion for the youths.
We spoke about leadership development.
We spoke about progress.
We spoke about a lot.
But dreams are merely the starting point. A leader once reminded me, dreaming without action is nothing but hallucination.
So then, what does it take to build a dream? Because big dreams don’t simply get served on a silver platter with nice icing and sprinkles on top.
It has literally taken took blood sweat and tears.
It has taken sleepless nights.
It has taken everything.
But, I’m still standing.
Some asked, if it’s so hard, is it really worth fight for? Is it worth the pain? Why not come home and live a better life? What if you keep fighting, only to wake up to find your castles still up in the sky.
While I thank God for the friends who have journeyed with me, for the most part I have many who assume that owning a business means I must have everything going for me and be in financial abundance. But my reality is far from that.
Not many can see the pain behind the smiles.
Not many can see the worth of what is being built.
So why am I still here? I’m here because every morning I wake up, I think of the change that needs to happen. Every day I step out of the office, I see the brokenness of the society. Every time I pass through the streets, I see people grasping at straws desperately searching for a way to survive to live another day.
So what keeps me going? Nothing else, but the passion fuelled by a deep desire for change. I know this drive is beyond me. This energy is only possible because its not me. It is being strengthened supernaturally.
It is a fire that comes from heaven.
A fire that never goes out.
A fire that keeps burning even through the darkest nights.
A fire, though weaken at times, but still burning.
It can never stop burning.
We can try as hard as we want to achieve success in our own strength. But it’s only with the Father that he can turn those castles in the sky into reality. One day, it will all be worth the fight.
Yesterday at staff devotions we reminded ourselves…
Without God, We Can’t.
Without Us, He Won’t.
So here WE are.
Now it’s back to you.
What does your heartbeat for?